Tuesday, 26 March 2013

Peace

 
A year ago today I lost my Dad.  After a few months of being terribly poorly he passed away peacefully holding onto my Mum's hand.
 
Together for so long and together at the end.
 
He loved, and was loved.
 
You can't ask for more in this life.
 
 
 
Today I am sad but I am thankful. 
 
I had my Dad for so long, I was almost 52 when he died.  I was so lucky to have had this wonderful man in my life for so much of it.  There are so many much worse off than me.
 
Thankfulness and gratitude are so much better than sadness.
 
I have somehow managed to let go of the deep, deep sadness that I felt for so long.  Maybe when you love someone so much and they love you back that love wraps itself around your heart and clings on, shielding it from some of the pain, keeping it managable.
 
Dad if you are somehow close today, know that I love you as much now as when you were here, and that when I think of you each day I see a happy, smiley face with a twinkle in your eye and that mischievous smile on your lips.  You lived your life well and filled your days with things you enjoyed, I take so much from that.
 
A was and still am a Daddy's Girl .... and I am proud to admit it.
 
Sue xx

21 comments:

  1. God Bless x This year marks 19 years since I lost my dear mother, and they live on in us forever

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  2. Thinking of you today. Though the pain never goes, remembering the happy times together seems to take over and help you through. Xx

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  3. This made me cry - made me think of my dad who passed on 12 years ago - I too was and still am a daddy's girl - I lost my mum last September so they were finally reunited. Still miss them both every day XXX Hugs to you X

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  4. I cannot imagine your pain and know that at some point I too will have to endure the loss of a parent. Sounds like yours was a real special one :)

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  5. Im crying also, but its a happy cry because there was so much love between you too. So many children today will never know that kind of parental love and therefore (most likely) not know how to love their own the same - a never ending cycle. Im glad you are thankful for having been shown one a life's great gifts - being able to give and receive love.

    Blessings from Down Under.

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  6. I have been reading your blog for sometime now and today I was moved so much I had to comment. I never had a Dad, born out of wedlock :( and today you made me miss the Dad I never knew. How lucky you were to love and cherish your Dad like you did. I am a mum of three now, married to a wonderful man who is a wonderful Dad and the beautiful cycle of love has now begun. You are a loving and kind woman I bet he was so proud.

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  7. Hello Sue, a beautiful post, very poignant . . I am sending you a big hug ,, I know what it is like to lose a wonderful dad too, unfortunately I did not have my dad with me for long .. only 10 years, 47 years ago he passed .. take care xx

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  8. It make me peaceful knowing that YOU are at peace.
    Jane xx

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  9. Big hugs,we never forget we just learn to live again.I was 21 when mum died and 24 when dad died,Im 46 now so have been without them for so long,I still miss them and think about them all the time.
    xx

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  10. Thinking of you Sue, and knowing how hard it is to lose a much loved Dad. I was 29 when my Dad left this world, but I feel as though he never really left me. The pain did get easier to bear, and it became more usual to remember him with a smile rather than with a dreadful physical pain and longing.

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  11. Such a lovely post Sue - it is 15 years since I lost my Dad, and I was 42 - but I still miss him. One of the Psalms says "The memory of the just is blessed"

    May you be blessed and comforted xx

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  12. Oh Sue, I really feel for you today. Ive lost both my Father in Law 2 yrs ago and the sorrow still echoes around our family. It will get easier, honest (I had lost both my own parents by the time I was 34), in time the pain will fade, and you will have the fond memories of how he was at his best. Remember a part of him still lives on - in you. Be kind to yourself today and if you have to, lean on those around you. You are in my thoughts.

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  13. Thinking of you Sue, beautiful post. Jx

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  14. Big Hug Sue....lovely post. Those we love carry on in our memories. 2 years now since mum died but I found the 1st anniversary particularly hard...as kiwijo says above...be kind to yourself today.

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  15. Hugs Sue. Just over 2 years since my Dad passed, now I remember the good times more than his illness and know he's always with us. Be good to yourself today.

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  16. Xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx sending hugs too x

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  17. I miss my dad too, he died 2006 aged 84 - but I still chatter to him and see him everyday on my Living room mantelpiece and from his prime position he can join in with all the family get togethers. Your dad will always be with you - just not physically, and he will know how much you love him and miss him. Your post is a lovely tribute to him. Thinking of you xx

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